My
Fear
Is
Blind;
I can’t help but
Suffocate.
One step
Each step
A struggle.
I walk
Down
Long
High streets:
Sweat pours from my fingertips.
Too much
Too soon
Alone in desolation.
Slippery thoughts
And a drum
In my heart.
What I see
Is what I feel:
Oppression.
The bitter taste of black
Coffee
The acrid grey of nicotine
Pinched
Skin
To
Feel alive
Under the
Stripped lights
So sore
Too
Bright
Too much
Too soon-cold isolation
Shaky limbs
And very little else
It’s like fainting
On
Spiky hills.
With my nails
I incrust
In
My
Flesh, reality.
In my thoughts
I infuse
Proper thinking.
It must be
Forceful
Extract myself from
Myself
Too much
Too soon-numb desolation.
Rooms are too square
Windows too far
Too little air
Can’t breathe
I
Can’t
Swallow
I know
I know
I’m so spiralled
In my own head
I need to stop and count to ten
And disconnect my restless mind
Replace each broken thoughts and fight.
This was wonderful, Mya. Such a great way to lay it out. And such a powerful sentiment.
I really liked this part:
“Rooms are too square
Windows too far
Too little air
Can’t breathe”
Yes. Rings so true, Mya. I like the format, like a thin, brittle thread running down.